I think maybe we all have those things, you know that thing that you used to do that you LOVED that now for whatever reason you don't do anymore. Nope we might not have been amazing at it but we sure did feel free when we did it. *sigh* for me (and apparently Catlin lol) it's Viola and I also miss Volleyball. Nope I wasn't the best at either one but they made me feel... well.... not sure how to put it.... besides.... amazing!! Sitting here listening to pieces of music that my friend Caleb used to goof around with or going back to the piece he loved to play or just hearing someone from back then calling me Jurassica (long story for a different day lol) takes me back. But I guess it's not just the action if I am honest about it. I mean playing the viola was amazing and I loved it but I learned really fast that it was the group of people I was playing with that meant more. We kinda were like a small little tight clique and family. Though some of us had been that way longer then we had played in Orchestra together. Watching my best friend in pain, begging to stay till a certain class and walking her back to her house cause she could barely stand, being there when we went on Orchestra trips and just acted plan retarded, seeing Eric (one of our cello players) play a kazoo like a stuck up snob while he was laughing on the inside the whole time!!
So maybe what I miss is the people, I mean playing alone in my room doesn't come to close to being no that stage playing with all those people!! In those moments when we were playing, we were the most amazing in our own little worlds and that was all that mattered!! Ahhhh to have moments like that again, or maybe I am just not looking for moments like that anymore? Who knows but when Kalina, Austyn, Tommy or the new little one get up there and are on stage or playing a sport, I am sure it will be really similar!!
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